cheated. By the one person who taught me how to trust and how to keep trust. I was truly suckered. Every time I think of it, a crushing pain simply grips me and makes me wholly numb. I cannot even make a release or talk to anyone about it. I have nowhere to go now. Probably one of the things keeping me going on is that the answer to “Why me?” lies somewhere down the road. Even if I don’t find it, I will ask God “Why me?” It is probably the only thread maintaining any sanity for me.